A common grave inscription in days of old, and rightly so I suppose! I think of it more relating to life though, a warning to those of us closely treading in the footsteps of those before us, making the same mistakes our parents did.
Or it could be something I might shout out to scantily clad 18 year old girls heading out for a big night, as I sit at home with my husband and daughter in a tracksuit filled with a surplus 20kg. Haha :P
I have a big year ahead in 2009, and to truly conquer my demons and do what I need to do to achieve my dreams and goals is going to take a lot of work. Possibly also a lot of rambling in this newly created blog. It's not going to be pretty and I suspect many curse words will be typed, but it is necessary or else I'm going to drive people around the bend with my incessant ranting.
A list of things I would like to, nay, need to achieve next year:
1. Time to stop smoking all together, yes D smoking occasionally when you go out to drink is still smoking you deadbeat.
2. Cut down the drinking dramatically, its not healthy or becoming.
3. Get your flabby, well sat on ass to the gym or out for more exercise. You're 30 now and are going to have to work to be healthy in mind and body so stop pretending you'll wake up and fit your old clothes - its embarrassing!
4. You have 6 units to finish off your Accounting degree, so just do it. No wait, don't just do it - do it WELL. Understand what you are studying and instead of being happy to get credits and distinctions. This time its HD's or bust. 13 years at uni .. its time to bring it home!
5. You can deny all you want that how you look on the outside doesn't affect how you feel everyday, but lets face it - you're only lying to yourself. Don't feel guilty for getting your hair done, waxing or other simple pleasures occasionally. You look like you are falling apart on the outside, people can tell you are falling apart on the inside.
6. Don't let what C does affect you. He is the father of your child and your husband but you cannot control his actions, and his actions don't define you or your life. It's time to put your big girl knickers on and since you've decided to stay married then make it work. No sabotaging, no self blame, no more chances.
7. Stick to the godamn mutherfluffing budget! This is the year to pay off the last of the debts that are hanging around so get rid of them as fast as you can.
8. This is a house not a junkyard, try to stay relatively organised and motivated to keep the house in a decent state, you've been coasting on the "I just had a baby/I am studying" bullshit train for too long. We both know you have the time to get more done.
9. Get your ass to the fertility specialists and for gods sake try to aim to have another baby some time soon. C is hanging out for a brother or sister and time is getting away from you.
Ok that's all of it. Not putting too much pressure on myself there am I!
Nice list D.
ReplyDeleteMost of them could apply to me too :p